Tuesday, August 20, 2013

When You Feel Mad at God

(Artwork by Artist Kelly Watts 2013)
Have you ever felt mad at God for your suffering?
A sweet friend of mine asked me specifically to write a post in this regard.
Well, I thought about it, and to be completely honest, I personally do not remember ever feeling mad at God for my suffering.
I think it's because of my experience during my depression.
God taught me what He thought about me as I continually poured myself into His word, drenching myself in His wisdom.  (Even when I was not able to physically read the Word but just hold the Word close to me... God was constantly showing me of His deep love for me).
Knowing that God see's me and all of His children as His treasured possession (Exodus 19:5);
Knowing that He knows me completely(Psalm 139);   
Knowing that we are made in his image (Genesis 1:27);
Knowing that He has good plans for me (Jeremiah 29:11);
Knowing that God is love (1 John 4:16)
Knowing that God is my provider (Matthew 6:31-33)
Knowing that He never leaves me nor forsakes me (Joshua 1:5)
Knowing that NOTHING can separate me from His love (Romans 8:38-39)
Knowing that God so loved His children that He gave up His Son to die for our sins (John 3:16)
Knowing that He is close to the broken hearted (Psalm 34:18)
Knowing that He is my comforter (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
Knowing that God is for us, not against us (Romans 8:31)
Knowing that He is My Shepherd (Psalm 23)
Knowing that one day He will wipe away every tear (Revelations 21:3-4)
Knowing that God loves me with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3)
Knowing that...
In learning all these things and so much more about our God, well, how can I possibly be mad at Him for my suffering?
I know that my suffering is not because God hates me, He is for me, not against me!
I know that when I was broken hearted He comforted me!
I know that when I need Him He is always there for me!
I know that He hears my prayers and answers them, they may not be the answers I asked for but how can I question God? He knows what is best for me.
I know that we live in a fallen world that is not our home, how can we expect to live a life free of suffering in a place that is not even ours?  Our place is in Heaven with God, where He will wipe away every tear from our eyes.
God says, "In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart!  I have overcome the world."  (John 16:33)
Our sufferings are temporary, but we do not have to endure them alone.
God is with us and He is faithful.  He hears our prayers; He comforts us; He gives us strength to fight through another day!
So if your angry... try not to be angry at God.  Instead, draw near to God and He will draw near to you.  If you must be angry, be angry at your illness and fight through each and every day with the strength and breath that God provides.  He is not your illness.  He is not your disease.
He is the LOVE of your life, the reason for living, the breath of life...
the streams of living water that hold goodness and mercy...
let those waters flow over you...
and let go of the bitterness and anger.
Allow Him to make you to lay down in green pastures...
to lead you by still waters...
to restore your soul...
Allow Him to restore your soul...
to be your Shepherd
where you will lack no good thing.
God is for you, not against you loved ones.
Our journey is hard but we are not alone.
Many hugs and healing blessings to you all.
With all God's love...
Kelly Watts